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Seeing pictures of his current girlfriend on line. Ouch. Does she have to be cute? Be a lot easier to be happier for him if he hadn’t pushed me so far away. I think I understand why, but that doesn’t make it hurt less.

Ever been at a point in your life where most of the people who were closest to you aren’t anymore? The people closest to me were my son, my sister and her family, Robin, Kerrie, and Martin. Zack is as close as ever, but I know he can’t always live with me. My sister betrayed us. Robin has become close to my sister, which makes things awkward and painful. Kerrie is still a close friend, but suffers from depression, so we don’t talk much. And Martin demoted me from best friend to facebook only friend. He lives far away, but we were still very very close. Like, if he lived here we would be seriously dating close. We had gotten even closer when suddenly I felt him pull away around new years. I found out through facebook that he was seeing someone, and then every important thing in his life I learned only through facebook. The clincher? On my birthday he posted a very generic facebook message. No phone call, not even a text. So I texted him “Bummer. I’ve been demoted to facebook only friend.” He called shortly after and left a message singing part of the happy birthday song and said, “I’ll call you tomorrow.” That was a month ago. Since then there has been only facebook contact, and very little of that. From multiple texts almost every day and phone talks usually once or twice a week, to facebook only. Ouch. So now I’m left feeling lonely. When I need someone to talk to, all I really have is my son. So I’m crossing my fingers and saying a prayer that I’m in transition. Making room in my life for someone really great. Say a prayer for me?

It sucks when you “best friend” demotes you to “facebook buddy”. Exciting things happen in your life, but I only learn about it through Facebook. And you wish me happy birthday with a generic facebook post. Thanks. So when I call you on it, you leave me a message on my cell saying, “I’ll call you tomorrow”. That was 4 days ago, You’re being a bit of a jerk. :/